i'm thinking about forever...

....missing you....

nice things

so i decided to play the glad game today
else i'll just feel grumpy. here are nice things that happened to me this year.
:D

- i went to japan and got to see Aimee and my nieces and old friends and eat lots of yummy japanese food.

- i got a job as soon as i came home and it was good for a while

- i got a car that hasnt broken down on me --yet! (okay fine, its ALMOST all mine :D)

- i made some good friends

- i got to go see ARCHENEMY AND CARCASS in concert

- i got to go see BACKSTREET BOYS in concert

- marisa came to visit

- i learned that driving whilst drunk is a bad idea and can get you into a lot of trouble mkay

- i learned that life goes on and you are stronger than you expected you'd be

- I'M NOT HAVING A BABY


okay...i think thats about it
love you muwahhhhh!!!!!

My Christmas Poem

Nevermind
That the oven doesn't work
And the fancy dinner
Dad always cooks
None of it would even taste good
Without you

Maybe
We don't have to buy a tree
Or the fancy lights
To make it complete
The lights aren't bright
The leaves don't seem green
Without you

Forget
The bobbles
And shiney things
The christmas carols people sing
Decorations aren't pretty
Songs don't sound sweet
Without you

I don't want
A gift this year
Nothing i'd get anyway
Would ever compare
To having you home
To have you near
To be with you

I don't mind
I have to go to work
On the 25th and 24th
I'd rather do that
Than spend Christmas at home
Without you

Perhaps
I'll skip
Christmas this year
I'll just be alone
Maybe have a beer
I'll save the festivities for when you can participate too
Because
Christmas isn't Christmas
Without you




--Angie Blackschleger
For my marmie

a moment

you are a liar.on so many accounts. and i've been in denial for so long. now i've been forced to realisation. i may not be an expert on what love is. but i think its safe to say i know what love is NOT. love is NOT picking and choosing. love is NOT saying -- its DOING. love is NOT a phase and something that comes and goes away. love is NOT letting it get away. love is NOT letting me go. so easy. how dare you call that love. i am so very tired and i feel like the life has been drained out of me. i want to LIVE again, i want to feel alive. i want to cry over something, smile about something, love someone deeply, and when i do, i want it to have nothing to do with you.
the biggest mistake i have ever made was choosing to believe you loved me. and the hardest thing i've ever had to do was admit that(it was a) mistake.
next time someone asks you why, i hope you can be man enough to at least have the decency to say (the truth) : "because i don't give a damn about you".

there.
i'm done.
now.
get.
the.
fuck.
out.

some devil (dave matthews)

One last kiss
one only
Then I'll let
you go
Hard for you
I've fallen
But you can't break my fall
I'm broken
don't break me
when i hit the ground
Some Devil
Some Angel
Has got me to the bones

You said always
and forever
Now I believe you baby
You said always
and forever
Is such a long and lonely time

Too drunk and
still drinking
It's just the way I feel
..It's alright
Is what you told me
Cause what we had was
so..
beautiful
Feel heavy
Like floating
At the bottom of the sea

You said always
and forever
Now I believe you baby
You said always
and forever
Is such a long and lonely time

Some devil is
stuck inside of me
Why can't i set it free?
I wish
I wish i was dead
and you were breathing
Just so that you could know
some angel is
stuck inside of me
Why can't i set you free?

You said
always
and forever
Now i believe you baby
You said
always..
and forever
Such a long
lonely time...

Stuck inside of me

pfft....this is a little dubious

Lets101 Quizzes - Fun Quiz

happy bday aim

ok so its aimee's bday today. let me think what to say about her...
she is smart, practical and no nonsense. she is generous , always making sure we have what we need and giving things away. she is caring, but in a non gushy way, which is quite a breath of fresh air. very matter of fact. she gives me good advice on boys and it always seems to make me feel better. Maybe its the diplomacy she uses. she is an awesome mom, i will never know how she does it. good cook, works hard. writes super good songs and poems and sings and it makes me jeal.
okay basically (and i'm getting quite near the end here), i want to be like my big sister when i grow up.
and now i'll stop referring to you in the third person. i love you, aim
happy birthday

nothing

so i'm gonna blog about nothing.
i have a cough that won't go away.
work has been busy and i've enjoyed it while it lasted.
i hate to find out its all just about one thing.
i'm trying to master the game of tetris.
lina bee just turned 1 and she is darling.
aiden will be 1 soon, and he is darling.
i weigh 115 lbs (the most i have and will ever weigh).
mm...
dannys album is out and i'm proud of him : http://joeamaranthine.blogspot.com/2008/12/immortality-by-death.html
i'm itching to get a new tattoo.
that is all.

i read this...and i loved it

Had I the heavens’ embroidered cloths,
Enwrought with golden and silver light,
The blue and the dim and the dark cloths
Of night and light and the half-light,
I would spread the cloths under your feet:
But I, being poor, have only my dreams;
I have spread my dreams under your feet;
Tread softly, because you tread on my dreams.

—William Butler Yeats