gayness

LA is gross and gay
a lot of crazy people and poor people asking for money
gas is expensive
i need a car
blogs are gay

and i miss you

yeah this is whats going on....

well so today was my last day of training
tomorrow i'm on my own.
i guess i should do fine....i feel better about it already.

well mom had to go the ER again today (jul had to call 911)
sigh
beebs bit dads hand so its all infected and swollen and he had to get it taken care of at the ER as well.
and well i guess dad will have to stay home now with mom
so dads stressed
and juls stressed
and i'm stressed
its just a stressful situation

i feel like a kid again....

hey little one
when you first came to our home
you were so scared and shy
now look how you've grown
i'm sorry i have to give you away
hey little one
dont be alarmed
you'll do just fine
she'll take care of you
better than i have
hey little one
maybe you dont understand
you're just a cat
but if you do
i'm sorry i couldn't say goodbye
and i'm sorry i have to let you go






Angie Blackschleger

food

well....
starting a new job is gay
theres so much stuff to learn
like drinks
that i have no idea about
ugh

so i'm starting to eat three times a day
well dad forces me to
but i feel guilty for eating
when mom still cant eat.......

fewf

so anyways
the other day everything was fine
next thing you know mom is having a hard time breathing and swallowing
so we had to call 911 because dad was out and i dont have a car
so the firetruck and ambulence come to our house
and like ten of them march into our house
yeah it was kind of an experience
so mom was fine. they still took her in but they let her go a few hours later
the fireman that was examining mom was so hot, so mom was all perky
and i drove in the ambulence on the way to the hospital and the driver was so hot, it was really awkward.
haha
then later on mom was like, thanks ang you saved my life. and i told her not to be so melodramatic

oh what a day.....

distance is darkness

The contingencies of a day unravel my senses
And now your distance is darkness
My hope has been beset by your absence
I decay from inside
Underneath it all there is still life
Despite it all there is still love


by AS I LAY DYING

dumb

ugh
so i went all the way to the doctor today
and he told me nothing useful
he just said i need to eat more
and gave me some medicine
ugh
give me a break man

i almost cried......

........ i saw their setlist
its almost to die for :(
meanwhile back at the ranch
i'm still sick
thats why i'm blogging
i cant sleep
or eat so much
i'm trying to drink water so i dont dehydrate and die

poor stomach

at first i thought maybe i was just starving hungry
so i ate a peice of toast
then the pain got worst
and i threw up
and it hurt even worser after that
i tried to lie down but it hurt
i tried to curl up but it hurt
i couldnt walk cuz it hurt

sighhhhhhh

anyway so i'm home now
my trip was fine but i was hanging out at the aiport for hours (so much for rushing out the door).
i've been sick this whole time with fever and cold and tonsilitis and jetlagging since i've been back except for the first day i arrived.
so i've been of no use which is gay because.....
yeah....
i finally got connected to an internet but it keeps disconnected so we'll see how this goes.
our new house is nice everyone says the air is fresher here, but personally i detect no difference.
jetlag is gay i cant sleep till like 4 in the morning then i dont get up till really late the next day (but i guess thats not much different than how it was when i was in japan, heh)
i miss aimee and the girls. and japan in general.
ummm....
i got my phone back, i really missed it, but i realise that nobody calls me anyway hahaha
so theres no point.
the weather is really nice and warm here i've been walking around in tshirts and no socks.
moving is gay...i feel really disoriented.
i guess i should stop murmuring now.
heres some pictures from my last days in japan





at the temple


tokyo tower