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It Ends Tonight (ALL AMERICAN REJECTS)

Your subtleties
They strangle me
I can’t explain myself at all.
And all the wants
And all the needs
All I don’t want to need at all.
The walls start breathing
My mind's unweaving
Maybe it’s best you leave me alone.
A weight is lifted
On this evening
I give the final blow.
When darkness turns to light,
It ends tonight
It ends tonight.
A falling star
Least I fall alone.
I can’t explain what you can’t explain.
You're finding things that you didn’t know
I look at you with such disdain
The walls start breathing
My mind's unweaving
Maybe it’s best you leave me alone.
A weight is lifted
On this evening
I give the final blow.
When darkness turns to light
It ends tonight,
It ends tonight.
Just a little insight won't make this right
It’s too late to fight
It ends tonight,
It ends tonight.
Now I’m on my own side
It’s better than being on your side
It’s my fault when your blind
It’s better that I see it through your eyes
All these thoughts locked inside
Now you’re the first to know

-All American Rejects

sometimes

sometimes i think i'm crazy for thinking this.
sometimes i think i'm insane for the thought of loving you.
sometimes i wonder if its all in my head and i wonder if it will ever go away.
sometimes i wake up and i wonder why you're not there, as if thats where you belong, and its the way its always been.
sometimes i dream about you and its a happiness i've never known then i wake up and its like i'm in a nightmare and my dream of you should have been reality.
sometimes i feel like you're so close to me and all i have to do is reach for you.
sometimes i wish you could hold me and i know that i'd find comfort in my hell and everything will be ok. just cuz you love me and i love you and maybe for at least one moment thats all that matters.
sometimes i wonder how far i would go for your love, and if you would let me.
sometimes i wonder why i think these thoughts and if you knew them, would you care?
sometimes the frustration kills me so bad that i want to quit everything.
sometimes i wonder how much i love you, and why.
sometimes i wonder what you're doing and if you think about me.
sometimes you tell me you love me and i wish you wouldn't.
sometimes these are the things i think of.
sometimes...........
and sometimes not.

down with love

i'm so through. i dont think i could give it another try. i'm so tired of rejection, so tired of feeling used. why do people have to be so mean and selfish? i cant do it anymore. i wish they would all just leave me alone. why do they insist on breaking me and bring me down? I'm so done they need to make a new word for it.

2 down...many more to go!

well its the best i could get...i dont think it does it justice though!

hair (or lack thereof!)

you cannot quit me so quickly

well....
i dont know how many times the same thing has to happen before i learn. i keep telling myself that i wont repeat my mistakes...wish i would take myself more seriously.
I hate the way people change. i hate the way i let my guard down. is it time to say no more? i think its been for a long time.
i give up on love. i give up on someone making a difference. there is no such thing.
on a lighter note...i had fun at the party last night. thanks, steph, for inviting me. and dont worry, you didnt ruin my night. sorry if i made you feel that way, i was just caught unprepared.
but i had a good time.
better than sitting at home waiting for someone to call...that never will.
so lame.
he's lame.
i'm lame.
i'm going to go take a shower....
and...
clean my room.

Insanity of angie

fallen so far from grace
so condemned with all my sins
i feel so trapped
i wish i could leave this place
how can i have the courage to reach for something
i dont know exists?
i feel the light squeezing my cold empty heart
yet why do i still resist?
i'm so scared of being alone
i'm so lonely without a home
i'm a coward that runs at the first sign of adventure
yet i still insist on giving my heart to strangers
please let me out
please let me cry
please death come to my door
i want to die
let me be simple
let me be free
let me love
let me be me

HEY AIM

what do u think about....

blackschleger sister duo.....

"angel love"

dude.

they should like TOTALLY trade babies. (what the heck am i doing in the photo?)
shes so pretty! judah is so cute and chill.

believed

I can't believe I've been
A stupid fool again
I can't believe I believed
Every word you said
I tried not to be
So damn naive
But every time I think I got you all figured out
It always comes back to me.

Just for one night
Let me believe
That what you saw in me
Was something you've never seen.
Give me one night
Tell me you're crazy about me
And i promise you wont ever have to see me again
Cuz one night
Is all i need.

I can't believe i thought you'd be
More than just a fantasy
I can't believe i believed
All that mattered was me
I guess you'll never be
More than a foolish child's dream
But I'd rather remain blind
Don't tell me you lied to me.

Just for one night
Let me believe
That what you saw in me
Was something you've never seen.
Give me one night
Tell me you're crazy about me
And i promise you wont ever have to see me again
Cuz one night
Is all I need........................................................................







NOT!!!!






Angie Blackschleger

YESTERDAY

all my troubles seemed so far away. why oh why did i cut my hair?!??!?! PUUCHHHHHHHHHHHHHHKDLK;JASD;LFKJAS;LKDJF11! (%*&$*(#(*)#_*(&(*&#%_(*&******&$$$$$$$$$$$$!
I CANT face the day...i cant face WORK i cant face ..... my friends. lord...if i knew i'd feel like this!
and he's probably never gonna want to see me again! hell and damnation!
i'm such a freaking coward.

no more dreads.rip

i want to see him

so i thought working saturday days would be profitable....but i guess i was sadly mistaken. made 25 bucks in 8 hours. thats bullshite. i make more saturday nights working 5 hours. gay gay gay.
it was so lame no one had the key to get in the restaurant this morning so we were all waiting around for an hour trying to get ahold of someone that had the key. the cooks were blazin it....at least THEY were happy. they kept telling me to relax. easy for them to say...
i miss working with bobby! he's my best.
i keep meaning to be faithful with my blog....but i seriously have nothing going on. just this guy...and i'm sure no one wants to hear about that. ahem!
for his bday he invited me to go with his friends to dinner and drinks. it was tons of fun, all his friends are so nice. Oh and he let me drive his truck on the freeway. hehe...
he keeps asking me if i want to drive again...but i dont have as much guts as i did that night...
anyway this is so boring so....
i'll write more later.

14

another one bites the dust
another instance of broken trust
another day that i'm wrong
cant say i didnt know all along

dont ask me how i feel
i know none of it is real
dont try to pretend that you care
the only reason you do
is cuz its cuz of you

tonight is the first time i'm so aware
tonight is the last time i'll ever care

so dont act like you're being fair
another empty word and i swear.....................




p.s. i cant write like aimee. this is just how i feel.