left behind

if you were i
it'd all be different
it wouldnt be so stangnant
you would do it right.
i sit here
in my own little corner
watching you all
just pass me by.
one by one
they come and come
do you even have to ask?
i do every night.
so much bestowed
i dont know why
all i know is
i'm left behind.
they've done it all
why cant i?
am i undeserving?
are we so unalike?
capturing hearts
creating time
they are your life
i'm still denied.
this time i wonder
for all i've tried
would it make a difference
if i lived or died.

come to me
my awaited angel
light my life
dont leave me behind






Angie Blackschleger



(well i wrote this really niftily but on accident i erased it so the inspiration was gone when i wrote this version i just tried to remember how i did it....but....grrrr...its not the same)

TOM

Oh dear....
Happy Belated Birthday. i feel terrible but actually i dont because for some reason i was thinking the 27th, i dont know why??
so i didnt actually forget. i was just....confused. But happy birthday brother! i love you and i miss you! You're a super good guy and a super good dad and i hope you have a super good year.
love angie

i will post something soon...i feel it coming on

SO.....

so i guess i quit my job...yesterday was my last day.
i dont really know what i'm doing right now...
its kind of exciting