the maker

so i heard this song and i thought it was so pretty



Oh, oh deep water,
black and cold like the night
I stand with arms wide open,
I've run a twisted line
I'm not a stranger in the eyes of the Maker

I could not see for the fog in my eyes
I could not feel for the fear in my life
And from across the great divide,
In the distance I saw a light
Jean Baptiste's walking to me with the Maker

My body is bent and broken
by long and dangerous sleep
I can't work the fields of Abraham and turn my head away
I'm not a stranger in the hands of the Maker

Brother John, have you seen the homeless daughters
Standing there with broken wings
I have seen the flaming swords
there over east of eden
Burning in the eyes of the Maker
Burning in the eyes of the Maker
Burning in the eyes of the Maker...

Oh, river rise from your sleep...

oh lord

step one. make sure bathroom door is locked before you use the toilet.

sigh

some people are just really mean.

fated

Somewhere behind
My heart stopped beating
Without forewarning
Somewhere in time
I left my feeling
Left my mourning
I would die if I could
I would
But I’m fated
I would cry if I could
I would
But I’m jaded
Not unaware
Physically there
Somewhere inside
My mind stopped seeking
Stopped believing
Somehow I find
Myself critiquing
The mess I’m leaving
I would scream if I could
I would
But I’m breathless
I would dream if I could
I would
But I’m restless
Not in denial
Just conscious on trial
Sometime I’ll try
To restart bleeding
Restart feeling
Sometime I might
Wish I were needing
Love’s appealing
I would stray if I could
I would
But I’m rope-tied
I would pray if I could
I would
But my hope’s died
Not in a trance
Merely dead in advance


sorry hanna i stole this from u! i love it. if u want me to take it off just tell me....

silly me

ok angie first of all. get it through ur head that the OTHER route gets u to work quicker and on time! get out of this stupid rut ur in.
aghgh.
second i decided i really love this song Blurry. its really pretty.
thirdly i've come to terms with the fact that i'm going to end up making minimum wage this week. but its really ok. kind of. well not really.agh.
last of all LONG LIVE SOAD.
(and danny ur right that song is pretty lame. haha see thats what happens when daron takes over. WHHAAT? HAHA . tsk tsk.)
long live serj! wahhahahaha

i dont know what to make of it...

i guess i look like a boy...
isnt it strange?

and what is up with these lights?

to the unknown

can this feeling just pass?
can my mind just rest itself for a little while?
can i close my eyes and forget about all the things that make me exhausted?
just for a second?
just for an hour or a day?
can i forget about you?
does black and white exist?
do i always have to live in grey?
can time just give me a break?
do i always have to wonder and concern myself with so many questions and doubts?
can i just be content with what i have been given and not always look for more?
can i just dig a little hole in the ground and hibernate?
can u just leave me alone?
can i stop caring?
can u rescue me?
can i figure myself out?
do i ever make sense?
can u ever love me?
will what i have ever suffice?
is this so incomplete?

gayness

well here goes my saturday....
i'm convinced god does not want me to sleep in. first of all the bee sting was itching like it was going out of style. second someone decides a SATURDAY of all days is a good day to chop down trees. aghghgh! how inconsiderate!
and THEN the baby started crying....etc etc.
so finally i just got up...
but i'm incapacitated because of my foot. :( i wanted to go out and do things. i should be packing etc...but ... i guess it will have to wait.
and PLUS i wanted to go play poker last night but i had to stay home cuz i couldnt walk. and everyone thinks i was just making an excuse! cuz at work my foot was...not so bad. but by the time i got home i was like...shoot. my dad's all like well let me know if you start getting red streaks going up ur leg, as you might have blood poisoning! i'm like what the heck?!??! tss ss ss...can u imagine?
so i guess today will be a slow day....

thank you

thanks to everyone that made my birthday very happy! thanks for the gifts, and for the cards, and for the greetings. thank you shem for the cake...