do you remember when we first met
at some party
and talked like there was no one else around?
do you remember when we first started chatting
remember when we'd talk on the phone for hours
for no reason in particular
we'd only seen eachother once.
do you remember how time went on
and slowly we became addicted
and we never realised it.
do you remember how we'd wait for the other to come online
or call
remember how we'd wait all day if we had to?
do u remember all the hours spent?
do you remember we couldnt wait to see eachother again?
do you remember on new years we talked on the phone
you in florida with fireworks
and i in california with a dozen drunk people.
just three more days....
do you remember when we met again
i standing outside the door smiling
and u looking through the peephole
not knowing you could see me
and you thinking i was the biggest dork.
remember
we would stay up all night
not doing anything
just talking and cuddling
remember we didnt want to fall asleep
cuz we didnt want to miss a thing?
do you remember when u had to leave
and we didnt know when we would see eachother again
but we would wait.
do you remember when our love was new
and we thought forever
remember when we were so fucking happy?
do you remember?
remember when i told you i was going to go live with you
and we thought finally
everything would be perfect.
do you remember when we were together at last?
remember when people told us it would end
but we said we loved eachother too much
and nothing could come between us.
remember when things started to be different
i wanted to go home.
but i didnt want to leave you either
remember when you told me u might take one path
and i didnt know if i could
and i asked if you could live without me?
u had told me you couldnt.
but you would.
and you are.
remember when we went to the movies together
and smoked together
and played mortal kombat together
and i was frustrated because i thought you were just letting me win on purpose.
remember when i was always mad at you?
and i woudnt understand why i was the only one?
remember when we'd laugh together
and listen to music together
and walk together?
remember when i'd go get drunk and bother you when i'd get home?
you'd get annoyed
i would get offended.
remember when i would go sleep on the couch?
remember when i'd ignore you?
couldnt talk to you
or apologize to you?
but "i love you" was ok.
remember i asked if you loved me
and u said u didnt know
remember i said i was going to leave?
remember the night it ended?
remember how i cried?
i think you were too...but i couldnt see so well.
it was all a blur
and my eyes were too puffy.
remember all the plans we made?
remember the tattoos we were going to get?
do you remember
and if you go i want to go with you
and if you die i want to die with you?
do u remember all the things
you told me to believe in?
do u remember how quickly it was over for you
not even a week being gone....?
do you remember how i still wanted to try
but you couldnt
do u remember i said i couldnt exist without you
but i could
and i am.
do you remember how mistaken we were?
about "us"
and our "love"
...
i do
Angie Blackschleger
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