my goals

ok so here are my goals.
1. pay off my credit card.
2. get a good car
3. get a computer
4. get a camera
5. visit aimee
6. sing like aimee (well not sound like her but be able to do what she can do)
7........finish my tattoos.

ok theres my list for now.

change

so today was my last day at the restaurant....I dont even know what to make of it. i cant believe i'm never working at that place again! what a weird feeling...
funny where life takes you...
i'm soo glad i had yesterday off. u dont even know how tired i was. i slept so much!
i guess we're gonna know in a couple of days if we're getting the place or not. if so, moving out on the 10th! wow...
everythings changing...
i want to visit aimee...perhaps i can arrange a trip...sometime in the beginning of next year. guess we'll see how things go!

oh my god...the smell of something delicious cooking downstairs...

so i put my nose ring back in..some people are VERY against it! i dont know what to do. i'm very conflicted right now...
thinking i might get my lip peirced...
just when to do it is the question..
ahghghg...
YAY i'll be having weekends off! i'm so excited....

fucked

i wont try to justify my actions any longer
wont try to tell u all i've said werent lies
wont try anymore to prove my innocence
wont try to explain why i pushed u aside.
i wont try to move you or make you listen
wont try to argue about some long past night
i wont try to convince you i wanted nothing to do with him
wont try to win this stupid fight.
i wont try to ask or beg for your attention
wont try to figure out what the hell is wrong
wont try to be decent and see if you'll listen
wont try to lift you and help you along.
i wont try to force you to say what you're feeling
i'm done with trying to be your friend
you always make me feel like i'm nothing
i wont ever go through this again

angie's sad

so i realised today that i'm like....really white and skinny. well i realised that i'm white a couple days ago. well i always knew i'm white and skinny. but i was looking at these pictures that were taken recently and i was like geross. i'm so white. and just now i was outside and i was looking at my arms and i'm like aghgh i'm so skinny. haha. i'm so lame.
i dont know what to do about it. PTL i guess thats just the way he made me.
anyways...wow.
so i'm gonna be sleeping at sams tonight...so i guess that means i dont have to wake up as early. oh and i'm going to be moving on the 10th of october. woopdie doo! i'm like kind of excited and kind of nervous too. its gonna be different i guess.
anyways this post is really lame so i'm going to stop talking.
i'm kind of sad.

EXCELLENT

so i've been listening to dave mattews band alot. cuz after the concert i was especially inspired. well they have soo many good songs aghghghg. this one i was listening to on the way to work really inspired me.


PIG

Isn't it strange
How we move our lives for another day
Like skipping a beat
What if a great wave should wash us all away
Just thinking out loud
Don't mean to dwell on this dying thing
But looking at blood
It's alive right now
Deep and sweet within
Pouring through our veins
Intoxicate moving wine to tears
Drinking it deep
Then an evening spent dancing
It's you and me
This love will open our world
From the dark side we can see a glow of something bright
There's much more than we see here
Don't burn the day away
Is this not enough
This blessed sip of life
Is it not enough
Staring down at the ground
Oh then complain and pray more from above
Greedy little pig
Stop just watch your world trickle away
Oh it's your problem now
It'll all be dead and gone in a few short years
Just love will open our eyes
Just love will put the hope in our minds
Much more than we could ever know
Don't burn the day away
Come sister my brother
Shake up your bones shake up your feet
I'm saying open up
And let the rain come pouring in
Wash out this tired notion
That the best is yet to come
But while you're dancing on the ground
Don't think of when you're gone
Love love what more is there
We need the light of love in here
Don't beat your head
Dry your eyes
Let the love in there
There are bad times
But that's ok
Just look for love in it
Don't burn the day away
Look
Here are we
On this starry night staring into space
And I must say
I feel as small as dust
Lying down here
What point could there be troubling
Head down wondering what will become of me
Why concern we cannot see
But no reason to abandon it
Time is short but that's all right
Maybe I'll go in the middle of the night
Take your hands from your eyes, my love
Everything must end some time
Don't burn the day away
Come sister my brother
Shake up your bones shake up your feet
I'm saying open up
And let the rain come flooding in
Wash out this tired notion
That the best is yet to come
But while you're dancing on the ground
Don't think of when you're gone
Love love what more is there
We need the light of love in here
Don't beat your head
Dry your eyes
Let the love in there
There are bad times
But that's ok
Just look for love in it

well i will talk about yesterday. cuz its still too early for today. soooooooo...
it started out pretty gay but then i made a sale TYJ! and then i thought we were getting paid but then i found out not till friday....
so i was feeling sad about stuff...then someone said something really nice to me and i felt like quite happy.
so work was ok i guess.
on the way home i was being very gay and listening to sappy songs. haha. yeah i'm gay like that.
so then i went to guitar center to buy danny some guitar strings. and what should have been a quick ordeal turned out to take long cuz there was a freaking accident and the roads were all blocked off. aghghghgh. but it was ok....cuz it was in dannys best interest :D
but then i found out he needs like two more so...i have to go back.
anyways...
that was my lame day.

at this moment

i want to get drunk.
very.
very.
wasted.