blurry

maybe....
one day i'll find the smile...
that was erased that lonely night
maybe i'll forget the time
you once lit up my life

maybe...
one day i'll give up the battle
and stop asking you why
maybe i'll discover its pointless
and agree that you were right

maybe

one day i'll love him
one day you'll give me back my heart
maybe i'll come to terms with knowing
we will always be apart

maybe

one day i'll turn myself in
i'll realise you will never be mine
i wont look back hoping....
maybe one day i'll say goodbye




Angie Blackschleger

dont you ever think about flying?
dont you ever get tired of that place
i know its home
but dont you ever want to try?

i know you have something no one else does
i know he loves you
and you love him too
we dont have to lie
sometimes i wish i was you

i think i know you well
i think you try so hard not to care
i know how you feel
why would you dare?
i think that me and you are alike
the only difference is
i think sometimes its okay to cry

.....tick.....toc....

i remember like it was yesterday....
and i wince because that memory brings the pain back (can't breathe)
the pain i can only compare to
how it must feel to have a knife penetrate your heart (maybe?)

(choking)

two days wandering aimlessly (dying)
what else was i to do?(just stop fucking crying)
wanting to rip your heart out and burn it
but not doing it because....
fuck ...i dont know why....(i love you)

it was a long ride to where i was going(numb)
couldnt believe i was actually leaving
but all i could think about(fading)
was the stupid love song playing in the car
and how it was all bullshit anyway...

then it hit me when they whisked me away...
part of me was glad because it was finally over (we're over...)
but the other wanted to hold on to you forever (liar)
but i guess forever couldnt wait

"i love you" (fuck you)
i shook my head (how dare you)
and felt a tear...(not mine)
(i wanted to suck your eyes out of their sockets)
how could you possibly?
"dont hate me" (i'm so exhausted)
(i fucking hate you (screaming))

what was happening?
why are they pretending like i'm not crying my fucking eyes out
why is no one asking me if i'm ok
i'll try to to keep my eyes low and head down so they don't notice me
and what a fucking retard i look like.
(fool)

....

10 mintues..
25...(waiting)
40...
why am i still sitting here?
where is the plane?(jesus)
hoping (pleading) against hope (praying?) you would come after me
and tell me not to go

....

my heart is breaking (please come back)
course not.(what am i thinking)
this isnt hollywood.
(no more dreaming)







Angie Blackschleger

this n that

so anyways...
i finished LOST
and now i dont know what to do with myself.
so i'm watching movies.......which is....funny.


mm...life is pretty much same ol
drama at work which i hope goes away...
court date coming up....nervous.
car is in the shop....gay.
i'm trying to stay positive
about everything...
ptl

did you know.....

Did you know
You hold
My heart in your hands
Did you know
You give
Me strength to stand
Did you know
I've always
Wanted you near
Did you know
The only place
I want to be is here.
Did you know
Sometimes I try
So hard to be strong
Did you know
Sometimes
You are the only reason i smile at all?
Did you know
I need
Your hand to hold
Did you know
You are
The bravest person i know?
Did you know
I know
You've always
Given me your world
Did you know
I know
I'll always be your little girl.
Did you know
I'd give anything
To be sick instead of you
Did you know
If god takes you
I want him to take me too.
Did you know
With you
I am complete
Did you know
That you
Are all I need.
Do you know,
Mother,
I love you so
Mother,
Do you know
I can't let you go?









Angie Blackschleger

ARCH ENEMY

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